23 cigarettes and so

1:39 AM 09/28/2010
2 Pieces of pie
23 cigarettes and so


8:34 AM 09/27/2010:

I sent 'Happy Birthday :)'
He sent 'Thank you :)'

Personal Thoughs
I sent him a text message at 8 AM. This is because I wanted he know how important he is to me.
It is important to note how happy was I because of the happy face.
That means that he is not angry anymore.
That means that he's happy today.
That means that maybe he is a little bit sensitive and is not as shitty as I thought
I AM NUTS

20:01 PM 09/27/2010

Me: 'I know that maybe this is not the wright moment but I hope that your concept about me has changed and now You remember me in a good way.
I've never wanted to hurt you. Hope you are really happy'

Though
I really want to. It's not a saying. Like, It's ok, we can talk, I don't bite.

NO answer received at 1:59 AM 09/28/2010

Could not sleep either.

I am idiot or what??
What the hell is wrong with me?

I wish I could punch my own face reaaaally hard without having to ask anyone.

Let's keep you up

This is what I most like about blogs. They are always recording the crap that you've been writing.
After reading my latest posts I'm able to say how stupid I am and how miss the inspiration that requires to fill all this, but the grey city is not enough inspiration. Got that feeling.

FRAN: I know perfectly you hate the 'Fran' but I am also your follower. You are not alone and I know as well that keep this updated is hard working time. I love you and miss you.
You've been my inspiration to post a new post :P
Thank you Fran and thank you Fran's mum?

Do you all remember when I wrote about I finally had my own home and that I would be living with friends? Ok, forget all that cause did not work (and when I mean it, I mean it).

How it does feel coming back to mum's? Ahm...I'm not gonna write about that.

So, yeah I got over my breakup, I got over 'the 1st German's departure, I got over the 2nd German's departure and I also got over my not-so-peaceful old house Issue.



I got a better salary:

Scale example:

1 YEAR AGO could pay 1 beer
NOW can pay 5349654631684646548645486 beers

Makes sense? It's not so so, but it's partially true.


I am planning since long time ago to go Germany. Now I think I'm gonna wait to reach my job commitment and ask to go Germany or France or Switzerland or wherever. I know that all that is possible and is not hard to get, still can't understand why people keeps working here.They are all wrong.

If I am okay? Honestly, got no time to think about it. I sleep, work, go to University trying to finish my studies once in a while and I work. Friends and family are worried about me and they still call me or send text messages that I do not answer. I think that I am avoiding social appointments and social life. I like that. I love my pijama. It never betrays me.