Acting like jerk

"This city is just not you, you're other kind of girl, you shouldn't be here"
The bad boy from who cares?.
I met him a few days ago in my city, then he came here. I don't know what to say about him except that he's such arrogant. Anyway last night we were talking.

All the fucking time i was thinking ok, this is not ok. he was flirting with me and at the same time just being too much honest, REALLY! which was ok just for a while. Then started to bother me. Then was when i said "please stop acting like a jerk" and he continued acting that way.
When i realized that, until that moment, was ok but not anymore. On that moment was when i decided leave that place. On the right time.

As soon the days go by

And everything depends of many things that are gonna be clearer as soon the days go by.
By now, my life is turning around and i'm going where the wind takes me and i love it. I've never feel this freedom feeling so real as i'm feeling it now.
Sensations are positive on me, future is not a problem 'cause now i do plans at present. Just for me and anybody else.
I like this, i really like.

Freedom

So, a cold morning woke me up thinking in freedom, happiness and relationships.
Relations are complicated. Relations could make you happy, sad, upset. Relations can teach you everything about love. Well, love's meaning has changed a little to me in the last weeks. Anyway, i was thinking that when you love somebody as i do you can't explain it in any way.

country full of huge and blond with people

I GOT MY TICKET!!! i already got it! I'm so exited, i just can't wait. Live goes easy on me right now wich is not so common. When things are going well, something is wrong, don't you think? Well, shoul i be positive, right?
Two entire weeks remaining just to spend two fucking days off cause that's all i could have. I have any money, i spent it all drinking with strangers and buying useless stuff.

GOD! My life is sooo saaad.

But is getting better as well my english is going easier to me.

I bought a blue bag. A small one cause i already have a big one and is not comfortable at all. Specially when you're a small girl as i am.
I bought it cause i still wait for an invitation to go for a trip. Even when i just count until ten in that language and i know how to say motterfucker (i'm really proud of that) even not having any knowledge about foreinger language and gringos life i still want to go to that country full of huge and blond with people

Packing my stuffs

Ok, im so excited, i have so much to do, i have no time, holy shit! Two weeks??!!! that's not enough at all!! What i'm gonna do??? Do i really care this guy?? Souldn't i miss my ex boyfriend?? I really love my ex?? Well, yeahh. So why i'm so excited with the blond guy? It's cause he's gringo?? Cause he brush his hair? Is because he's really tall?? Hahahahah. OK, let's think a little. Let's think, let's thiiinnn-inkk Let's thinnk.

Ham

Well, after get really drunk lastnight was a little hard to wake up. Specially when you work at 8 am (i know, that's insane!). I went out with some british guys wich it was so weird cause i though that they were from Israel and i spent all night avoiding talking about political and religious subjects. ???Anyway, i just can't remember how but i stole a little piece of ham from the guest fridge.

people are wonderful

When i came here i was a little shocked, depressed. All was black cause life sucks and you hate everybody when you're black.
Tears never were enough and advices just didn't understand how i felt.
When i came people were so nice to me and now i know that people are wonderful, people can be the best or the worse feeling in you. People can determinate how was your day, what did you learn and how's gonna be. Our reactions depend on a few, i don't know why. It seems like we have to be a little dummy to know how treat people, how be a better person, how you should handle some situations that you never passed through.
As a friend mine says: Life is just energy.

sixteen thousands kilometers

Ok. Go out in the middle of the night in the middle of nowhere just to buy somthing ( can't tell what was it) wasn't part of the romantic evening. No way at all. And as much you think about it, no no, no thoughts, please no.
Sixteen thousands kilometrs away of distance was not enough to change my mind about it was a good idea (oh, yeah, it was...) travelling during 3 hours and half just to see that blond guy for 12 hours and then back to the-my real life.
And people just say that was a good "relationship" just being with a guy that you don't know at all and however you feel that feeling when you know somebody but in fact you don't even know his name?¿?
Lill confused for a while until i realized that was a great idea, even if i'm a lil depressed right know, i know that was a great idea.

Million Times

As i though around a million times, this is time to change. Change points of view, change the way to live. But as i also though one time ago, is not so hard as when you realized how much you've lost and how much you're gonna have.